How I wish I could.

Sometimes I wish I could be like other people.
Really envy you all so much. Sigh.
I wish so hard that I could hav all the things your had.
The happy family, great siblings, caring father/mother.
I wish I had all of this. Really I do.
If I could hav, I would cherish all of this ttm.
Sadly, all that I hav is nothing.
A bunch of friends which I don't know how to express to them that they're important.
A father that don't know how to care & communicate w. me.
A mother that doesn't teach me anything about growing up
& never knew how to teach me in a proper & caring way.
A brother that bully me whenever he has the chance to.
& same, he doesn't show me any care or Love that he should give.
I'm giving up this family.
& afew teachers that helped me clawed my way up.
In the end, they just listen to what people accuse me about.
& give up hope on me. -,-
No one really tried to give me things that I want. To satisfied me.
& I'm the one thinking how to make people like me more.
How to make people cherish me & treat me important.
I had lost almost everything in life.
All I wanted was to hav a happy, fun, loving&caring family.
A parent that can let me do want I wants, give me what I want.
& not trying to stop me doing things, or pull me down from my thoughts.
Shouting at me thinking this will let me be good.
I want friends that really can sacrifice for me. Did something FOR me.
Miss me, Luv me & treat me nice & important.
& not waiting for me to contact them. & if I don't then soon, they'll forget me.
 Words that touched me, that expressed so much love, no longer exist anymore.
Not much things will last. Even if it's the sweetest word humans say.
It's hard to find out if it's true or false.