You can't change the facts, just come in terms with it.

Thins ain't getting any better.

My emotions are getting from bad to worse.

Today counselling, cried for 1 hour plus. -,-

& sad to say, yes. This is the first time I cried

so badly infront of my counselor.

There's so much things I wna say.

But I don't know how to put the words out.

I felt extremely lonely. But who knows?

Tell me things I wna hear from you.

I keep telling myself I should be contented from the life I hav now.

& I shouldn't ask for more.

But I just can't help being greedy.

I keep telling myself I'm happy.

But deep inside, I know I'm not.

Not at all. How I wish it'a all a nightmare.

A terrible nightmare.

I want to wake up from this bad dream.

But no matter how hard I tried,

everything stays the same.

Ahmah, I'm sorry I'm not a filial granddaughter.

I miss you so badly. & I'm really afraid you'd be 

taken away from me. I wanted so much to visit you.

But yet, I counld't bring myself to.

Whenever I see you in your eyes, I felt so sad & scared.

Sad that you don't recognise me.

So much things in the past. When you took care of me daily,

look after my everything. Ensure that I'm healthy & happy.

Now, you tell me you don't know who am I. 

What am I going to do? I've got no idea...

Ahmah, all I want to say is ILOVEYOUDEEPLY.

& this will never change.

For you're always my beloved grandma.