You can't change the facts, just come in terms with it.

Don't know what happened, but suddenly so many memories just rush through my mind.

Really don't know how to cope with all this memories.

I really want to forget everything, live a new life. But it just seems so difficult.

I've put those 'important' people down, but sometimes the memories just kept haunting me.

& I seems to mind alot about them. Totally don't know what's wrong.

All the hurt that I receive kept haunting me. My mind & heart is so confused..

The problem is that there isn't any rhyme or reason for it to happen.

I don't even know what I'm thinking inside. I don't know what I really wants.

I just want to find a good guy that I love & that he will love me truely & treats me good.

But it just seems so hard.. I just wna have a stable relationship. 

I just want to leave the past, leave the memories..

Looking up at the sky, if only there were afew stars in my life to brighten it..

The nightsky always offer something fantastic, far beyond from things made by humans that tenderly hurts me.

It seems like they just could see through my vulnerability, & make use of it to hurt me even more each time.

The excruciating pain I've been receiving is unbearable.

The kind of feeling being tormented by it continuously sucks. & the hope of overcoming it is futile.

I'm really dread of the feeling, if anyone goes through the same thing as me, he/she will be dread of it too.

All I wanted is a caring, loving family.

& a boyf that I love deeply, & will treat me good, caring & love me with his heart...

Memories is such a dangerous thing. 

It just keeps pushes tears of anguish out of my eyes.

Tired, but I can't stop to keep myself awake,

Panting... Yet I can't hear myself breathing.

I am still, Motionless, yet I'm falling...

Into the darkness of this vulnerable life.