Specially For You

Sorry I've hurt you again & again. Thanks for giving me chance again & again.

As i said to you, I thought I could.. I thought too highly of myself alr.

There's nothing I can do to save the mess I've create, therefore I can only say it here.

I hope you don't hate me. I'm deeply Sorry.

This month when I went to see my doctor, I slim down by 5 kgs just one month.

I'm gg from bad to worse. I can't control myself anymore y'know.

My family recently hav alot problem too. I'm breaking down anytime.

It's not me saying this only, my doctor explains to me what I'm facing right now. 

And it's not easy for me. I don't want anyone to face this with me.

I just want stand up by myself, I don't want drag you down with me for this pain. I hope you forgive me..

Every single day, everynight before I sleep I blame myself. Blame myself for the past.

For the things I've done to you. I feel guilty EVERYDAY. I feel bad. 

Idk how to make you understand my feelings but I really feel very very very bad.

If only time could go back, I would choose to stay on my own and not knowing you.

Not changing you in so many things and did so much harm to you.

I love the memories we had. I love the way you smile. I hope you will keep it that way.

I hope history won't repeat. I hope you won't do anything and let me feel more guilty in any way.

I love you. But I don't deserve your love. I choose to be on myself. 

Cause I don't want you to be emo with me. Thanks for everything you did for me.

I will always keep it in heart. The times at 2008 till now. 

You will always have a special place in my heart that no one can ever replaced.

Cause you're the most special one.