You can't change the facts, just come in terms with it.

Depression is such a strong emotion, it's regret,

fear, frustration, isolation, a choice,

and sometimes, even a form of protection.

Think back to the times when I just knew I have got depression.

It just came right so sudden.

Back to the times when I'm just 13.. No idea why I'm so emo.

No idea why i love so much to bleed.

No idea why I cry on my bed having so much 'why' in my mind.

I asked my aunt when she's a nurse herself. But no one knew what happen to me.

But when I turned 15, I got so hard to fall asleep.

And I seems to cry almost everynight. Went to see the doctor just for medicine to sleep, but he asked me a whole lot of question and said I've got depression.

Yeah, it's like so rediculous right?..

I didn't believe and when to another doctor.

I didn't mention I've seen another doctor previously, I just wanted some pills to eat so that I can fall asleep peacefully.

But she asked me questions again and said the same thing.

At that time, I didn't really know what will happen to me.

But now I knew.. I was in great torture with no one knew.

I was giving in and tolerating in stuff,

and yet people just keeps hurting and hurting me.

I need someone to care, listen to me, share, but I always can't find anyone whom I can find when I need..

And yes, when I found it too late, I didn't know what to say.