You can't change the facts, just come in terms with it.

 

Really very tired of everything around. I swear I really feel like ending everything.

Why? Why do such things happen to me.

Why is my life so upside down. Why am I so weak?

I really don't understand. I feel like dying. But whenever I think of ending it, I feel very irresbonsible to my mum. But I breaking down halfway alr. I can't help myself. There's no one who can help me.

Only my mum keeps me alive every seconds now.. I swear.

Even if I'm eating my medicine everyday but I can't control my emotions.

I can't control that depress that's rising inside. There's too much things alr.

My work doesn't go well these days.. And my mum keep having suiciding thoughts.

I feel like telling her, why not both of us die on the same bed of over-dosing?

But I know this is a way of irresbonsible. And I know my brother will hate me for it.

If i die today, who will still remember me tmr then? Who will bring my blue rose to visit me?

I don't know who's true or fake. I don't dare to trust and hope.

I've fall too much. Too much hurt inside. I'm trying hard to stand up. I hope I can...

There's nothing in life that keeps me going. Only my mum.

If one day I really can't keep her in life, I know my time is up too. 

 

死亡也许是最好的解脱。。。
希望还会有人记得我。。。